As the temperature dipped this morning, I was reminded that autumn was arriving once again. I found the change in seasons kind of symbolic as I have been personally mulling over several changes in my wee little head here as well.
To start with, I have decided that I need to accept and move forward with myself here. I made an appointment once again with the local gender clinic for a few weeks from now that I resolve that I am going to keep. Yes I am scared shitless and anxiously excited and started a countdown of days here. I know this date I will keep obsessing over here, but really I have so much trouble focusing on much of anything else lately it seems.
Another big change I have decided to try and new hairstlye. Again I am very nervous and excited and am going to try and go with bob in a natural blonde color. I am trying to coordinate my outfits and thinking perhaps I need something new to match here. This feels like another big leap of faith but at least I know I can always go back to the original look here.
Anyways, that is the latest in the swirl of things that is Jaclyn's world today. I am holding my breath and hoping things end up in a better place than today. I am just good with change but know it is a necessary thing.