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I'm turning here to write because I am unable to turn to anywhere else. Today I have no motivation to live anymore and just feel completely dead inside. I take that back, I don't really feel anything inside but just a hollow shell. I have no sense of identity, no sense of being and no idea what I am or want. I've tried to explain this to people and they don't really listen but try to argue more with me until I lash out in anger and hopelessness that it will ever get any better. It won't bacause I can't let it and I can't control why I am this way. I am just broken, worthless and at my end. I don't have anywhere to turn to anymore but just to sit her and cry in the misery I wrought. I know what I need to do but just can't take that final step. I don't know anything anymore.