Struggle Within
I stare deeply off to the far horizon
Watery vision only comes to me
I wonder why I can never move forward
I wonder why I can never be free
It hurts so deeply, so quietly within
I feel so alone, a freak to hide away
To be a shame for those I love
To be a false promise to them each day
I don't fit into boxes, I don't comply at all
I don't really know where to begin
Each day the battle rages on,
An eternal struggle within
At day end I run away
Lack the courage to make a change
To become the real me
Instead of this foolish charade
I desperately need some tender shoulder to embrace
Some caring hand to direct the right way
I've gone down so many wrong turns that I'm turned all about
This is the hell that I am destined to stay
On the verge of giving up
I keep hoping for sun
Praying for this circle to break
Praying for somewhere to run
I can't keep inside the pain I feel much longer
And the fear that I am just a mistake
I struggle each day within myself
Too much for me to take.
