Been awhile since I've written and since that time I have dealt with depression, anxiety, happiness and depression again.
I feel so low at the beginning of this year since I have been suppressing myself for so long I forget how it feels to be real. I am feeling that edgeness and pain inside that I can't really describe, it just makes me feel numb to the world and want to cut myself to feel something.
I feel like such a failure and see myself crashing here but nowhere to turn. I am beyond hoping for the better, I just want to curl up somewhere and hide.
Happy 2021 world.