Yes it has been a busy past week with family here so I haven't had much of a chance to capture my thoughts down here in electronic form. Not to say I haven't been busy, I have been writing and thinking and contemplating alot about myself and trying to decide where I am going. As my counselor says perhaps I am trying to rush into things too quickly but the sitting around and sorting things out has not been my cup of tea.
As I have been so upset at myself for my latest purge, I am already finding it hard not to pick up an item or two and I am on my way to rebuilding again. I miss my auburn hair but I am getting used to my new mid-length look and actually liking the new look.
This week's session was a tough one and basically devolved into me trying to not be so ashamed of myself and to start from there. That is a very tough lesson for me and I am so in awe of all my fellow transgender sisters and brothers out there that seem to have it so much more together. I'm trying each day to get a bit further along there, but I feel so painfully slow along this path. Someday perhaps my little steps will amount to a large distance, but still I need to let go of the railing to actually move forward I believe.
Anywho, I decided to take some Jaclyn time even though it was a fleeting few moments in between a busy time. I've tried to capture some pics to help me feel better of myself, I know that I need so much work and I really rushed the makeup and could use some tweezing for the brows, and so forth, but nonetheless here I am today. I hope someday I will look back a wonderfully beautiful woman and even more than that is that I will feel and know that beautiful feeling on the inside.
Ciao for now. Hugs,