But what if your life is opposite -
and instead daily you wear a costume that doesn't feel like you. That is how I
feel inside and let me tell you it sucks. I feel trapped in a costume because
that is what I am supposed to do. I feel trapped in a costume because that
causes less conflict in others and doesn't bring pain to my loved ones. I feel
trapped in a costume because I am afraid what will happen if I show my true
self. I feel trapped in a costume because, because, well because I keep making
excuses.
I don't look forward to Halloween anymore because it just reminds me
that I fake and pretend to be every day of my life. I feel that pressure to be
and to pretend is getting too much sometimes and tell myself I am going to make
a change and then avoid things. I hope that somedays I can put down the charade or learn how to live better with both sides of me.
These are my hopes for today and tomorrow.
Hugs ~ Jaclyn
Hugs ~ Jaclyn
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