The personal thoughts on the journey out of the closet and accepting myself as a proud transgender individual
Tuesday, February 7, 2023
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I'm turning here to write because I am unable to turn to anywhere else. Today I have no motivation to live anymore and just feel completely dead inside. I take that back, I don't really feel anything inside but just a hollow shell. I have no sense of identity, no sense of being and no idea what I am or want. I've tried to explain this to people and they don't really listen but try to argue more with me until I lash out in anger and hopelessness that it will ever get any better. It won't bacause I can't let it and I can't control why I am this way. I am just broken, worthless and at my end. I don't have anywhere to turn to anymore but just to sit her and cry in the misery I wrought. I know what I need to do but just can't take that final step. I don't know anything anymore.
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There are a lot of us who will listen love. Please know that fact and that your are loved.
ReplyDeleteYou are not alone. I beg you to call the Trans Lifeline: 877-565-8860.
ReplyDeleteLove, Hannah
You are not alone in you thoughts of disparity, but you will be okay. The emptiness you feel inside, can be replaced with happiness if you just reach out to others who understand. I felt a lot of the same until I reach Cross Dressers Heaven, just finding friends and support there has helped me tremendously. It is a site for CD’s and TG’s. I have made a lot of real friends over the years. It is self therapy, and it all starts by just reaching out and being open. Sharing ones thoughts and feelings, makes one feel not so alone.
ReplyDeleteThere are so many people who care even if this is not easy to see. You are very needed and loved.
ReplyDeleteLife is difficult no matter how we present ourselves and I get it. Loneliness is not fun I’ve been through it and go through it a lot.
ReplyDeleteJust know you are loved by those who are here responding and I will pray for you. Yes I know some don’t understand that but my faith has sustained me for a long time
Please take the time to think about how many of us truly care about you and will gladly listen. We all have our ups and downs..
ReplyDeleteAll the very best to you.
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ReplyDeleteI understand how you feel. In 2021 I lost two sisters a niece and an uncle then in 2022 I lost another sister and uncle then in January of this year I lost a brother
ReplyDeleteYou are NOT alone. As Hannah said above - reach out to the Helpline: 877-565-8860. <3
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear of your experiences and the pain you feel. Please call the helpline and know that many people are wishing you better health and happiness soon. Take your time as you look to find the best way. Yes you are loved
ReplyDeleteYour blog has been a life saver for me and I am sure others. Please know that we care and we listen. If you need to talk reach out to the help line above or if you just want someone to talk to you can reach out to me.
ReplyDeleteJacqueline, we all love you. It can sometimes be that simple. When I struggle with my identity I will always reduce my problems down to the positive factors. The simplest common denominator is always - I am loved. You are too.
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