so sorry

sitting in the dark alone again

numbers pile on the floor with no end

wishing to be freed

wishing to be gone indeed

there no end to this infinite time

as the tears wet my face.

i've cried and searched everywhere in vain

i've resolved that there is no solution to my pain

cutting my flesh does not release my hate

hitting myself does not register in my thoughts

i am nothing but a mistake.

i want to end it all right now

take that final step that final bow

i have planned and prepped so many ways

i have thought of this for so many days

i am nothing but a mistake.

that safety valve that keeps me here

i hate that more and more each year

i hear how much pain i would cause

i see how much a burden and pain i cause

i am nothing but a mistake.

this misery soon from which i'll be free

this misery i've reached  the end for me

just quietly sitting alone here in the dark 

nothing more

i am nothing but a mistake.